...... Life Note ......

I could describe it as a daily wish. Possibly even a prayer if I stretched the hand that held my pen high enough that I may get a little inspiration. 
But it’s really more of a craving. 
This insatiable hunger that I just can’t shake. 
It rattles me until I am dizzy and I think too much and I cannot think anymore so I just go to sleep instead. 
But if this desire was easily attainable, 
well,
would I think it a blessing?
I am already cursed. 


If I could just place some sense in my words, 
if they could flow from page to page and
stick to minds and bind to hearts 
I could make tears dry and souls catch fire and 
lover’s eyes lock, 
well, 
would I have done my job?


If I could only stop feeling so fast. 
Maybe my words would come out with more eloquence
More reliability 
More talent
More energy
but then, 
What else would I have to wish for?


Can anybody hear me out there?

Life....

I have always taken myself too seriously, given the unbroken and unrelenting narratives in my head too much airtime, too much credence. I have always over thought things, beating them to death with undeserved attention and single-minded focus.  After sixty plus years of this you would think I wouldn't go wandering down Worry Road or Speculation Street any more but sometimes, purely out of habit, I fall for the ruse that they will actually get me somewhere.

Whatever the issue is, I have found, it will usually resolve itself in time with or without my thinking about it. Whatever the issue is, I have noticed, it is usually something out of my control anyway. That is to say, it is somebody else's business, not my own. When I worry over whether or not someone has taken my words or actions the wrong way, I am worrying about someone else's brain neurons firing in such a way as to make whatever I did or said a negative occurrence in their life. First, I have no business trying to crack their head's code. Second, what could I do about it even if I could? 

But I'm just thinking out loud here. I'm just thinking about thinking. It's a vicious cycle, isn't it?

True Friendship

True Friendship is a powerful bond & is prescious and “time” can be a powerful enemy if not used wisely…..it slips away…..don’t let your friendships do the same.

........Think For Someone............

I close my eyes and think of you
You used to be a stranger I hardly knew
Ever since I've known you, I've been in a daze
You've got me going crazy, this time I'm not afraid
You wiped away my tears, like no other has done
You touched me the right way, you didn't want to rush
As our lips touched and our bodies came close
I saw us together, never wanting to let go
Who'd ever think I'd fall this hard?
You've opened my eyes, a walking angel you are
I want to be with you because you set me free
You have shown there's a lot inside of me
I feel I need you, like you're the one for me
Leaving footprints on my soul, an everlasting peace

Meetings....

Meetings....
Life is about meetings...
seriously...
meeting up with friends, family, colleagues, boss, strangers...
formal, informal...
serious, relax, business, casual...

every meeting is an opportunity...
opportunity to know others and ourselves...
how others think, how others response to how we think...
how we response to how others thinks, others responses...
it's always learning curve..
knowing how far, how mature we have become...

was having a rather serious meeting the other day...
then i almost lost it...
but praise God i decided to stay calm, keep my cool...
though i felt terrible after the meeting..
but Angela told me (after everything ended)
"You did well, i really think you handled the meeting well"
really? i couldn't believe... i guess... i have grown up...

i think when i was young (still young) my skill in handling meetings...
were really bad...
not that i have become so good at it...
but i really thank God for helping me...
i have changed.. i have grown up..
i have learned to hold a meeting...
hopefully it was an enjoyable one...
..........................................................................................

trying
recently has been trying...
trying to be keep up...
keep fit, stay vigilant, be on guard...
tried to be hard working..
tried to be friendly...
tried to do a lot more...
it's like, if there's only 1 little of oil...
i am letting it burn more, burn harder...
is it in a way shortening my life?
dunno, juz trying.. trying to do more...
so that i won't regret because i wasted opportunities...

watched the show 'In Time'...
then realized, ya.. we cannot waste time...
people in the show know how much time they left..
sometimes, i really hope to know how much more time for me...
so that i won't waste time..
i won't waste time on unimportant thing...
i won't waste time to do things that is wasteful...
but i guess it's blessing not to know when our time is up...
we just live day by day...by His grace..
with our best, to glorify His name...

so... i think, better log off now..
:) do some meaningful thing...

God is in the house...

God is in the house...

The Boy & Girl

There was a Boy ‘n a Girl,
They were best friends for years ‘n years,
They could Talk for hours on the Phone ‘n text each other for days,
When They were Together;
Not a single Sad Thought could cross their Minds,
everything was Great, But One Day;

The Boy did not Answer any Call or Reply to any Text for a Day,
The Girl was worried that something was Wrong..
at night She couldn’t Sleep.., She was sitting in her Room Crying,
‘n It was then that She Realized how much He Means to Her..?

The next Morning;
She woke Up from a Phone call.., It was the Boy..

Boy : Hey..,
Girl : Im so glad that you Called Me, What happened to you yesterday ??
Boy : I was Busy
[ The GIRL Understood that;
Something was Wrong but could not Ask]

[silence]

Boy : You know..; We should Stop talking..!
Girl: What??.., But Why ??
Boy: I am Sorry, Bye..!

[He Disconnected the call, 'n She Felt as If Somebody
had Slammed the door on Her face]

Everything else Flashed in Her Mind,
Tears :’(
Cars running by Her..
Roof of some building..’n Sunset..
She couldn’t understand anything..
She started Feeling Lonely, Dejected, ‘n broken..:’(

That was the answer to everything! His words were pouncing on her..
Her heart wanted to jump out!

He was the One..! “Why..??”
She Screamed at the Top of her Voice;
Then She made up Her Mind to make a last Try to get Him Back..!

[She called Him Up]
Girl: hi…
Boy: Why are you calling Me?
Girl: I need to tell you Something..
Boy: Go Ahead.
Girl: I Just Wanted You to know one thing before we stopped talking!
Boy: Tell me..!

Girl: Are you All right?
[She broke off..!
She tried but may be he doesn't really Care about Her,
She Thought!
She wasn't His friend in the first Place...
Tears were slowly running Worst
She left the House with a Note..!

[5 hours later]

Phone Rang in the Boy’s Room,
It was the Girl’s Mum,
The girl was lying in the hospital, Got hit by a Car, :’(
The Boy rushed to the Hospital where She was.

She Opened Her Eyes with the Boy’s name..,
He took her Hand..

Boy: Im so Sorry Its all my fault..! But;
I promise when U get better I’ll make It up to You..

Girl: I wont get Better..
Boy: No..! No Don’t say that..
Girl: just tell me one thing Why did you do it?

Boy told her that He had a Heart problem ‘n
he did not want her to be worried;
‘n there was a risk that he could have Died..!

Boy: I did that because I…..I…..I Love you..?
Girl : I LOVE YOU TOO..?

‘n After That her heart Stopped Beating…:O
She Died..! :’(
The Boy died 10 mins later from a Heart Attack..:’(

He could not live with the thought that;
She died Because of Him.. :’(

-Moral:
If You Love Someone…;
Then Don’t Hold Back Your Feelings…
because Love is The Reason to Live..!
Love is Beautiful..? !